Rant time again...

It happens to everyone, every once in a while. (maybe for some it happens far more than they would like...or allow "it" to affect them so greatly) I am speaking of outside negativity...a negative feeling from an external source that brings up burning emotions coming from deep within. Know what I mean?? Allow me to rant...that should explain exactly what I am talking about.

When I log into my blog, I can access a page that will show me "Stats" of the demographics to my blog. I check it out every so often, as I find it interesting...I love how the internet can bring people from ALL over the world together...in a way. ;o) Anyways...a few days ago I logged in and went to that page. I noticed a HUGE increase on the number of people checking it out. I was like..."what the heck? How in the world could that even happen?" Then I hit the "Traffic Sources" button to see what is going on there. I find a link to a page about amputees. And it is no informational page about "amputees", or having amputation or whatever...it is like a "porno" page of amputeeism. I only call it "porno" because it is a site where men (I'm sure for the most part...maybe some women too) can post photos, that they have found on the internet, of women with missing limbs. Eye candy for the people that go to that web site. They find these photos on women's MySpace or Facebook profiles...perhaps pictures on prosthetic constructors web sites...or just googling amputee.

I started to write this blog a week ago...so full of anger about the whole thing. I had to start again...the fire has been brought to a liveable level...for now. ;op It seems that these days, with the world wide web giving access to everything all of the time...I can not hide from the people who love to "use" my images for their obscene fetish. (I find it obscene because of the way they talk about the "amputee" women they locate on the internet, stealing their pics than posting them along with lude comments.) They will claim it is all out of admiration. It's bullshit. Yes, I will be blunt about it. It really infuriates me. These people...they call themselves devotees...have found my photos in the past from a MySpace page I had. Plastered them all about their site..."isn't she pretty?", "can someone find more photos of her?", "is she married?"...and blah, blah, blah. They talk about the "sexy stumps" on the women they hunt for. It's sickening. They are so disrespectful and oblivious to that fact. And I have had to make sure when I cancelled MySpace and entered into the world of Facebook, that my settings were on high privacy. And now...well, they somehow found my blog. I got them to remove my photos from their filthy site. I wish that I could make them take the site down somehow...the stuff they write about all of the beautiful women on there is sickening...they are sickening. But fetishes are not crimes unfortunately. And hurting someone's feelings and belittling them is also not a big deal...so they are allowed their thoughtless and discriminating site. It takes a long time for some women to accept themselves as they are, with their missing limbs. I know...it took me most of my life...I still have the occassional struggle...all because of people not understanding. Sad state of affairs that is. :o(

In the event that some "devotees" are still lingering on my blog...but, I am pretty sure most are gone, I say this anyways...pull your head out of your asses and open your minds just for a second here. One...I am not an amputee. I do not have a stump. I was born missing my right arm. It is how I am supposed to be. So there is no warped and scary story of how this happened. I do not need to be rescued nor taken care of...except for the care and love I receive from my husband, family and friends...all who love me for ME!! Two...I am not an object. I am a human being, born on the same planet as you and everyone else on this Island Earth ...we are all brothers and sisters just trying to live a fulfilling life, no matter how many limbs we have or the colour of our skin or our nationality. It's time to grow up and just love...love and let be. Three...maybe you should get out of your fantasy world and live in the real one. Smell the flowers, smell the crisp clean air that is the end of winter heading into spring. Life is beautiful...quit hiding in your rooms and posting pics of "disabled" women with which you would love to take advantage of. It just isn't right no matter how you explain yourself. Think about that for a moment. We are not animals.

One of the many reasons I decided to start this blog a few years back was so that people could read about the adventures and daily life of a "normal" woman. Yes, I have one arm...but I am exactly as every other woman on this planet. I have hurts and fears, joy and pains, excitement and curiousity, love and sometimes dislikes too. I love to get dressed up for the special occassions. I like to dress down most days in the event of dogs jumping up on me with dirty paws or sitting down on wet sandy beaches to enjoy the sun rays...or, if I am lucky get some gardening done. These things all make me happy. I want to be seen as everyone else...yet still enjoying my own uniqueness. And through my blog, I can show all of that. All the while getting things off of my chest! ;o) 

I am thankful for my life, who I am and who I am evolving into with every year of life that I am blessed with. I am surrounded by many lovely people whom I adore with all of my heart. I love my husband with every breath that my living body has...I will continue to love him in the next life...be that in heaven or in the next round here. ;op (I am pretty sure heaven it will be!) I absolutely love my family and am so grateful for their love throughout all of my life. For, I haven't always been a loveable character...the teen years were troublesome. Yet, my family never turned their backs. And I am so lucky to have as many crazy and amazing friends that I do have...for I am crazy too! I feel that to live a successful life, love is something that needs to be abundant...and I really do love love!

Even blurry love is fine! ;o)

Peace. xo