All righty then...let the typing begin. It's December 30. I don't even know what to think at this moment. I know we are supposed to sit back during this time and reflect on the year we just survived. I know some people will have had the most fabulous year ever so far in their life. Maybe they just landed their first ever "real job" and have been getting a regular paycheck and feeling the freedom of major financial woes as they were previously used to. And that can make for a good year. I also know there are some people who experienced a whole other type of year...begging on the street for money just to be able to find a cheap snack or if they are lucky, a hot meal for the day. Maybe even if it is just a warm six pack of beer. We judge the homeless for drinking...but in reality drinking keeps them warm and tricks their body into thinking that they don't need sustenance to keep on going. They do what they can to survive. And of course there are those people who just cruise through year by year not hating it or loving the year past...they don't pay attention to anything. Every day is the same...what's the difference anyways right?? I don't know if that is a good way or bad way to be...just on the fence and complacent with all the goings on in life. Where's the thrill, the excitement...the chaos? These are life things too...it's okay for it not to be perfect...it NEVER will be! That's the beauty of it...makes it completely interesting.
My life this past year. I can say it was the biggest and scariest roller coaster I have ever been on. And I have been to most of the major Theme Parks in North America...I LOVE the big rides. I have only ever puked once! ;op Between facing personal demons and major life struggles...relationship hardships...financial woes...feeling overjoyed with happiness for the love I actually do have in my life when I take the time to see it all surrounding me. All of these things and more made for a tumultuous year. But through it all I have learned so very much. And I think...I believe that I am a better woman at the end of this year than I was at the beginning. So good-bye to you 2010. I had high hopes for you thinking everything would be rosy and rainbowy and happy days always. It was year of the Tiger...my year. I was 35...sounds like a great number. But being pathetic to myself in the past caught up with me this past year. It's time to have self respect...and I think I actually have it now. I have taught myself to love and respect myself...I am important and worth it. We all are. We really need to love ourselves more and feel happy within because we are GOOD PEOPLE.
I welcome you 2011...bring it on! Cheers to a rocking New Year! Peace out!!
Suppose I could call this next blurb my "forward"...
I am who I am and I am that way because it was just meant to be...and you know what?? After nearly 35 years...I can finally accept that statement as a true testament to how I feel and where I am at in my life. I decided to make this blog in order to keep an online journal for myself. Get things out of my head that are newly there or have been covered in cobwebs and I have been FAR too lazy to sweep out. Well, I am going to do it. And hopefully in doing it I can feel better and happier and more centered by getting things out of my head and heart, whether it be a feeling of the day...or something from my past that makes sense to me now from some crazy situation or circumstance that I was in in recent past or what seems like ages ago. It'll be fun and I will enjoy it...I know I will...I love to speak and chat and chat and chat, this is my "new" platform. Hmmm...
Anyhow, maybe reading the crap that spews with force out of my mouth and onto my blog can also have a great affect on you, the reader, if anyone even does read these rants. And maybe...just maybe, the ramblings on my pages will be good for you to hear...like something you just needed to hear from someone else. I don't even really know what the heck I am talking about...but it still makes complete sense to me. Perhaps it will eventually make sense to you.
Of course let's not forget my first reasoning for starting this blog in the first place...reading my crap may make you the reader understand more that a "One Armed" woman is every bit just like you and everyone you know. Normal...with a few crazy tendencies...with, perhaps a chaser of compulsions. ;o) Hee hee!
p.s. I also am a story teller. A detailed story teller of the drama and on goings in this whacky thing I call my life. I have been through and seen some wild things my friend. I have been known to find and sometimes knowingly put myself in some awkward and very strange situations...you'll see...er, I mean read. Cause you know I am gonna talk about them! ;op
Grew up in Winnipeg, Manitoba...super cool city. Proud Prairie Girl! I am the dreaded "middle" child. Squished between my older bro and my baby sis...I love them both dearly. They have kids, so I have 5 nieces and 2 nephews...all of whom are the cutest most sweetest children EVER!! I have an amazing mom & dad and my last remaining grandparent, Omi. ;o)
I LOOOOVE animals...ALL animals. I love to read, go for walks on the beach or in the forest, chilling with a movie and my man, drinking red wine and hanging with my girlfriends. I love to have fun and laugh as much as possible. Life is short...live and laugh it up!
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Thanks Pam.
ReplyDeleteI think we've managed a parallel even though we've just met.
You're one of the elite awesomes on this rock.
See you soon lady and keep waving, it makes me smile.
Bry ala feedlot.